The last couple of days have been hard. I am still physically and emotionally drained from all of the events.
It's been a couple days since Laney went missing, and early yesterday morning Vinny and I started our search for Laney once again. We had no intentions of allowing her to spend the Holidays alone. Plus it started snowing a couple of days ago and for all we know, Laney could be lost somewhere out in the cold and her jacket is back at the orphanage.
My desperate hunt for Laney has kept me distracted from the burglars as well as my pregnancy. I didn't think it was possible but Laney almost kept me too distracted from my pregnancy.
It was about 2:30 yesterday when it started snowing. For the first time since I've been pregnant, the temperature dropped below freezing, so I wasn't quite sure how to dress. I put on my maternity jeans over a pair of fleece leggings, a long sleeve shirt, one of Graham's sweaters, a peacoat that barely covered my belly, and a scarf. I figured I would be plenty warm and if it got too hot I would take off some layers.
Boy did I take of layers! It wasn't until I broke out in a sweat wearing only my long sleeve t-shirt that I noticed something wasn't right. I sat on a bench in Sherwood park next to Vinny watching all of the people skate on the lake that had frozen overnight. I began to feel nauseous and I was going in and out of consciousness. I started to forget where I was and the last thing I remember was waking up in the Hospital surrounded by co-workers, Graham's parents, and Vinny.
Vinny said that I wasn't responding to him and that I just randomly went unconscious. He called an ambulance and they rushed me to the Hospital.
After the burglars broke into my apartment, I took a couple of days off of work just to regroup. I also skipped my last doctors appointment which I probably shouldn't have done. I just didn't feel like facing all of my co-workers quite yet.
Paige dismissed everyone from my room and told me what was going on. She began with a serious tone. Her doctor tone, one that I never get to hear since we're always just joking around. Her tone of voice scared me. I didn't know what was going on.
"Riley, you almost died. If it weren't for Vinny and his fast response to you going unconscious you may have joined Graham in heaven."
"Well, well whhaa, whatt happened? Why? I just don't understand!" I replied.
"Riley, due to the fact that you skipped your last doctor's appointment, you wouldn't have known this. But your child's blood supply was almost completely cut off due to a compressed umbilical cord. We were able to go in a open the cord back up so that your child didn't pass. And you're lucky you didn't either."
"I just can't believe this! This is my job, this is what I do for a living! How did I not know?!"
"Riley everything is okay. You just need to forgive yourself. This isn't your fault. I'm going to need you to stay at the hospital for observation for the next week. You're going to be a mom sooner than you expected. We should have your child delivered in the next couple of days."
I panicked, "I'm not ready for this! I need Graham! I don't have anything ready! No house, no nothing! Please No! I need this last month to prepare! And what about Laney?"
"You're going to be fine I promise, now there are some visitors waiting patiently outside for you."
And that is how my yesterday went. Hopefully today serves me better. I'm just sitting here in this hospital bed waiting on the arrival of my child and praying that Laney is safe.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Number 4
Today was my day off. But of course something always gets in the way whenever I decide to take a day to pamper myself.
My plans were as follows:
Go to Zumba Class
To get my nails done
Get a massage
Get a belly casting
Cook dinner for Grahams parent's, the Sminotes
But instead I was forced to wake up early because some idiots decided it would be a fantastic idea to break into my Castle apartment which had almost nothing in it. They didn't even steal sentimental things, or big electronics. My laptop was untouched, the flat screen Graham bought me for Christmas one year, that was actually for him was still there, and a nice surround sound system hadn't been moved.
Rather than the expensive things I had, they stole shoes. I mean shoes can get expensive, especially for a girl like me who was a shoe diva. But since I practically live at the Sminote's house, none of my nice shoes were there. I had taken all of my boots, flats, and heels to my bedroom at Graham's parents. They didn't even steal PAIRS of shoes. They stole LEFT shoes. What idiots.
I honestly wasn't very upset about the shoes that got stolen. Nor was I that upset that my day to myself had been ruined. What irked me the most was that these Burglars forced me to go into apartment 444. The apartment that Graham and I shared some time ago. I hadn't seen the inside of this apartment for more than a month and I wanted to keep it that way.
I was finally moving on with life for the betterment of my child, work, and personal reasons. I started hanging out with friends again, making dinner for Graham's parents and even going to Zumba classes in my spare time. Things were finally looking up for me. The blind man I met weeks ago had made a huge impact on my decisions and efforts in life. He truly inspired me.
But this selfish burglar made everything around me stop. It was like I was still moving but everyone around me was frozen. I looked through Graham's old closet to make sure nothing was stolen. His things were the last connection I still had with him. Every once in a while I would wear one of his sweaters and pull it off like a cute maternity outfit.
Once the cops talked to me I told them that not much was stolen and that I wanted to leave. They respected my wishes and I took a walk around my old neighborhood. It was sunny now which made me realize that I must have spent hours upon hours in that apartment. Time felt frozen but life on the outside continued.
Since my day off had practically been ruined and the hole in my heart was widened. I decided that maybe I could help fill my heart by going to the orphanage and reading to the children.
Upon entering the orphanage a child ran up to me and asked if I had seen a small girl named Laney. With regret I said no and a middle aged man approached me to explain what the young child was talking about.
He spoke with a sad voice, "Laney is a young girl who has been at the orphanage for a year or so now. She's sweet, kind hearted and she loves to play with dollies. She went missing right from the orphanage about a week ago and ever since then the kids have been wondering where she is."
I replied with what must have looked like a concerned look and said "Well is there any way I can help? I have no plans for the rest of the day."
Vinny showed me a note that was slipped under his door of his castle apartment. It was Vinny's worst nightmare. Someone knew where Laney was. But was unwilling to help. Laney was probably scared out of her mind yet someone was playing a game with her. All I knew was that Christmas was fast approaching and I didn't want Laney to spend it alone.
At this point, I had completely forgotten about the Burglars and had a new distraction from thinking about Graham.
And that is when Vinny and I began our hunt for Laney.
My plans were as follows:
Go to Zumba Class
To get my nails done
Get a massage
Get a belly casting
Cook dinner for Grahams parent's, the Sminotes
But instead I was forced to wake up early because some idiots decided it would be a fantastic idea to break into my Castle apartment which had almost nothing in it. They didn't even steal sentimental things, or big electronics. My laptop was untouched, the flat screen Graham bought me for Christmas one year, that was actually for him was still there, and a nice surround sound system hadn't been moved.
Rather than the expensive things I had, they stole shoes. I mean shoes can get expensive, especially for a girl like me who was a shoe diva. But since I practically live at the Sminote's house, none of my nice shoes were there. I had taken all of my boots, flats, and heels to my bedroom at Graham's parents. They didn't even steal PAIRS of shoes. They stole LEFT shoes. What idiots.
I honestly wasn't very upset about the shoes that got stolen. Nor was I that upset that my day to myself had been ruined. What irked me the most was that these Burglars forced me to go into apartment 444. The apartment that Graham and I shared some time ago. I hadn't seen the inside of this apartment for more than a month and I wanted to keep it that way.
I was finally moving on with life for the betterment of my child, work, and personal reasons. I started hanging out with friends again, making dinner for Graham's parents and even going to Zumba classes in my spare time. Things were finally looking up for me. The blind man I met weeks ago had made a huge impact on my decisions and efforts in life. He truly inspired me.
But this selfish burglar made everything around me stop. It was like I was still moving but everyone around me was frozen. I looked through Graham's old closet to make sure nothing was stolen. His things were the last connection I still had with him. Every once in a while I would wear one of his sweaters and pull it off like a cute maternity outfit.
Once the cops talked to me I told them that not much was stolen and that I wanted to leave. They respected my wishes and I took a walk around my old neighborhood. It was sunny now which made me realize that I must have spent hours upon hours in that apartment. Time felt frozen but life on the outside continued.
Since my day off had practically been ruined and the hole in my heart was widened. I decided that maybe I could help fill my heart by going to the orphanage and reading to the children.
Upon entering the orphanage a child ran up to me and asked if I had seen a small girl named Laney. With regret I said no and a middle aged man approached me to explain what the young child was talking about.
He spoke with a sad voice, "Laney is a young girl who has been at the orphanage for a year or so now. She's sweet, kind hearted and she loves to play with dollies. She went missing right from the orphanage about a week ago and ever since then the kids have been wondering where she is."
I replied with what must have looked like a concerned look and said "Well is there any way I can help? I have no plans for the rest of the day."
Vinny showed me a note that was slipped under his door of his castle apartment. It was Vinny's worst nightmare. Someone knew where Laney was. But was unwilling to help. Laney was probably scared out of her mind yet someone was playing a game with her. All I knew was that Christmas was fast approaching and I didn't want Laney to spend it alone.
At this point, I had completely forgotten about the Burglars and had a new distraction from thinking about Graham.
And that is when Vinny and I began our hunt for Laney.
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